Today is better

I woke up today feeling like I normally do. Groggy, cold, and looking for some reason to not come to work. BUT, I didn't have the anxiety and the sadness that I've had for the last few weeks. I feel sort of normal again. Who knows why. Maybe I just gave myself enough of a kick in the ass, and some other things to think about, to get me out of the rut I was in.

I didn't have french fries yesterday. Tonight, I will have some, but they will be from home, and so they don't count the same way. It's not cheating, I swear.

For the random obsession of the day, I have decided on pets/cats/kittens.

The house feels lonely. Like it needs something. The pitter patter of little feet. A baby, of the human variety, is not what I'm after at this point. A dog means lots of responsibility, never being able to leave it for more than a few hours without having someone else take care it, whether it be a friend or a kennel. A dog needs training, real training, which takes time and lots of money. We, or at least I, have the time. But we don't have the money. Not right now. And it's not just the money, as I realize a cat will cost money too. But a cat doesn't require the same things. And a cat doesn't require that someone come home every 4 hours. A cat doesn't need the same attention and dedication that a dog does. I'm spending so much time justifying this because REALLY want a dog. But it's not the right time. Maybe when things settle down more, or maybe when we have kids and are trapped.

A cat, on the other hand, we could leave over night without too much worry. A cat means someone could come in once a day if we went on a trip. And the cat would be ok. the baron brought up the idea of fostering. I'm not sure I could do this though. I wouldn't be able to give it away, I feel like. Maybe I'm wrong. I think, though, that it will be hard to sell Husband on it.

In the mean time, we're going to have a discussion about it. Hopefully a real one, over pumpkin carving tonight!